Everyone was talking at once..

I had to take something to sleep last night. it kills dreams, but i woke at 7am and as i came up thru the layers of deep sleep, before wakin i heard all the people on this board (REv EV, Sharena, someone called Pauline, and soemone whose name I cant ge right now but they are a regluar contributor) talking to me, all at once, telling me to 'take the money and run with it'

as my husband has walked out on me, leaving me here, big mortgage and bills, my sister in UK said max out the home equity and take themoney and run last week....but being an honest fool, when husband first said 'he needed time to think' I said close out the home equity loan as we dont use it...and what do you know he actually did it!! (first time he actually did something in six years...) so now cant run with the money....

i am waiting for lawsuit against fed govt to resolve (another month? 2?) to try to get my greencard granted, i have been waiting 19 years, victim of a 'lost file' long ago...(I married a black man so they threw my file away...I know this, they told me it went to 'investigation' and then, it was gone....) but there is every chance they will just deny it, and try to deport me..two marriages and nothing to show for it...

what the hell am I supposed to do. Husband says he doesnt care...