it's 100% ok to cry. get it all out.
then get up, dust yourself off, and decide what you need to do/get to make yourself happy. you deserve happiness and you have the right to get what you want out of life. sometimes the toughest part is figuring out what you want. but deep down inside, we all know. we all just have to get to know ourselves a little better.
take care ((((hugs))))
my internet homepage is www.dailymotivator.com every day there is a positive message. somedays i dont read it, but when i need it, it's always there. and you can search for writings on paticular subjects too. i've found it helpful more times than i can remember. it's hard to be positive at first, but the more you do it, the easier it becomes and the easier it is to believe good stuff about yourself. 
one of the hardest things for me to overcome after getting out of jw's was being positive. i was raised for 17 years to see only the bad in people, to see only the bad on a global scale. to see only the bad in movies, music, news, friends, clothing, food, medical procedures. i've had to work at replacing all the negativity with facts, because let's face it, i'm not saying life is all rainbows and sunshine, but it is DEFINETLY more good than bad...not like the jw's would love you to believe. that's why i feel sorry for them. they are so concerned with the next life "everlasting life in paradise" and so obsessed with how dreadfully awful this planet is, they are blind to the beauty of the people, places and things of the here & now.
but we know better than they do, don't we?