Hi, hope all is well with you. I really didn't take this seriously. I never go the "mall" for halloween, but only to homes of people we know... I'm not changing that. The mall thing doesn't frighten me nearly as much as being in a hospital right now.
I have had some really vivid reaccurring dreams about the top being ripped off of one and my children inside the top floor. They are so real. Daniel is laying on a bed with his eyes bandaged and a 6 inch screw halfway in his stomach and my other daughter being in the process of having her eyes bandaged by my deceased mother... it's too much for me right now.
I have every intention of following my intuitions on this one - I plan on having this baby at home. None of the local midwifes will even touch me... too late they say and they say it's the wrong reasons for staying home... but that is too bad I'm not going in. It is too real and vivid for me to ignore.
I do know many EMT's and nurses and my local GP are all available so all should be fine. I don't normally over-react to my dreams but this one is just way too much. I know, it's seems crazy and I am probably over-reacting, but so be it... I want to be close to my babies in a place I feel safe.
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