You did nothing wrong. Others lead you down the wrong path but you did nothing, that I can see, wrong.
When my life was the most difficult I learned to acknowledge that which I was greatful for. Waking up in the morning would be one thing. I think waking up in the morning and taking a breath is making it.
I also think bad things that have happened are lessons to learn from. So I'm greatful for lessons. Rather then looking back and asking, why me? I ask, what did i learn from that?
I know what it's like being sort of trapped longing to go strawberry picking but not able to do it on your own. The only thing I can suggest is rather then wait for someone to ask you maybe you could ask another if they would like to do that with you.
When I left home I was 18 and I really didn't know how to take care of myself. I moved in with my now husband.
I got a job and met a girl who taught me how to live. She helped me make phone calls, and told me how to answer questions, told me how to speak to sells people and even how to hold my body in public. When I could not speak or look at people she talked for me and let me hide myself when I needed to. I was very very lucky to have found such a friend. She and I still talk but she moved away about 11 years ago. When she left I went back to my old ways. I have a new friend she isn't really like my other friend but she makes me get out of the house. We go to dinner or to the movies about once or twice a month.
Tell me something. How can a person who is...
"feel like am not contributing to society in way..
feel like am mostly a burden to society...""
bring up two amazing children? A boy who fights for his dog, his sister, and for himself when the school let him down.
A girl who's art makes my eyes sing. Who is pushing herself to learn new things like skating. A girl who cares about her family and herself.
And you the one who finds ways to fight for the children. Who over comes fears for the sake of the children. Who thinks of others when your own self suffers. Besides all that you do for the children you give something special to society. Your writing. The way you describe what your mind is going threw expressing your emotions in a way that we can see it and feel it. Michelle paints her visions, you paint with words on our computer screen. We are lucky to have found you. Thank you for sharing your children and yourself with us we are lucky to know you.
ew I'm getting too mushy. hehe
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