AS and parenting

Ok it's been a bit since I made a real post here but what the heck let me test the waters.

I've been thinking about how being spectrum can be a real problem for me at times. Altho I've come a long way in the past few years I still am very behind in some areas. It's in these areas that I do a diservice to my children.

One of the assignments my son has in 4th grade is a family journal. It's really a kewl idea. The teacher writes in the journal to each individual student. The student then replies to the teacher and sends another message to the parents. The parents are to write back to their child in the journal. My son has had some really neat questions and ideas in the journal. Well each time he writes in his journal he writes dear mom and dad. His dad replies but I don't. I'm ebarrassed of my illedgible hand writing and my poor spelling and I don't have a clue when it comes to grammer. My son asked me why I never write in the journal. I told him my hand writing is real bad and I'm not as good as he is at spelling. Funny thing is the next day I had to write something down. My son saw it and said wow mom you would get a D for your penmenship. I laughed and said, I know. I could probably ask the teacher if I could write my replies on the computer and print them out but my lil guy would not appreciate that. And I don't have the guts to ask the teacher. AT least his dad writes in the journal so I don't feel too bad.

Also my daughter's preschool had a field trip to an indoor ice skating arena. I really didn't want to go but my daughter really wanted me there so I went. Well it was total chaos there. No one told you what to do, or how to do it, or when to do it. They gave the little children instructions on how to fall and how to get up.
(I've never skated before) Then they marched the children to the center of the rink and told the parents they could join them now. I CAN'T SKATE! she was in the center of the rink I didn't know how to get to her. Most of the moms never put skates on and stood behind the wall to watch there children. I had skates on I thought I HAD TO skate. Well my girl was having a real hard time out there she couldn't keep a balance at all.
A mom was helping her and I was relieved but the mom was looking for me so she could be with her own daughter. I couldn't go out there, I kept myself out of view. Then the instructor helped my daughter but I could see my girl was on the verge of tears. I walked around the outer part of the rink so I could get closer to them and I called to my girl. I asked the instructor to bring her to me, so she did. My girl wanted to go home so we took off our skates and watched the other kids.

Somethings about spectrum can be pretty rough at times.