i did realize there would be 2 children.2 children with the same DNA. One vaccine injured, one not. And just as i love both my children, i would love a 3rd. I would not shove Daniel aside. He is not shoved aside now. He is deeply loved and cherished.
But i would see how he woulda been. What his thoughts are. Hear his voice. Hear him say mommy. Hear him say I love you mommy. Hear any word at all.
As far as him feeling left out, i know it would not happen, but he is basically oblvious to such things as other people being "superior". He doesnt judge the amount of attention spent on him. He judges nothing. The vaccines that robbed his speech pretty much robbed most NT qualities such as jealousy, envy, ect.
I think this is much different that a husband bringing home a new wife.....and like i said, if my child were simply "different" i wouldnt even consider such a thing, not that i would anyway....we were just saying "what if"...