lg

just want to hide.
away
for ever
am so stressed and overwhelmed wit hthis.

heard today later on the clear words.
infact it is because now have 2 new ASD DX's
what a joke life is.

so, yes, went to north bay end of august.
psychiatrist specializes in developmental disabilities in adults said
HFA.
just last week, the day before trip, saw a psychiatrist here-2nd visit.
(this was because ben green the guy who says no to autism, last winter ,he made a referral to this "help centre" for mineself.
well, the help centre said, no they do not service developmental disabilities, but rather mental illness. SO they said, they can have their psychiatrist look at mineself, and he can make a referral to some other place. SO that mental illness psychiatrist did an assessment, based on 2 interviews, and all reports he had seen(but not the HFA report from north bay... and he dx'd mineself as PDD-NOS.)
SO, now have a total of 3 different autism spectrum dx's aspergers, HFA, PDD-NOS. AND once this "help centre" worker called this YWCA service co-ordination to get the referral for the community suport worker, they absolutely refused to ACEPT his report even!!!
they had told the worker "we allready have a assessment" , when the worker from the help centre said that she had a d'x of PDD-NOS for mineself, the YWCA service coordination had said "we only want the most recent report, and we allready have that", then the help centre worker had said, "no, your report was last winter, this one was done last week"... to that they said they didnt want to see it!!!
they evenrefused to accept the report!!!!!!

it truly is that someone hates mineself there.
for some reason.
can it be......can it really be...
this has something to do with ....

rosa?
with the whole thing happening with rosa in this small town....
and that because every social worker in this city seems to knwo each other, and seems that even social workers whom have never heard of, have heard of mine situation... (this is evident because this social worker barb had been willing to offer counseling for mineself,but she had to leave because she got a job elsewhere, but when she tried to get a referral for mineself, she couldnt find ANYONE who would take on mine case.... asked barb if this one particular person "knows" about what happened with rosa n mineself... barb said "yes"... how is that possible.. since only place here in this town to know of it, was the womens shelter where came to whe nfirst arrived here..!!!! IS THIS WHAT CONFIDENTIALITY MEANS!!!!!!!????????
SO THIS IS how they treat a person who was in an abusive relationship with their ex-therapist..... DO THEY CARE that one of the main reasons this whole problem happened with the ex-therapist was becuase have a developmental disability (THEREFORE naively belived everything a "helping professional" tells mineself... HAH!!! HAVE DECIDED TO NEVER BELIEVE ANYTHING AS STATED ABOVE POST!!))), was manipulated, threatened, emotionally, sexually,physically abused, and this was by a social worker who told mineself she had fallen in love with mineself... am her ex-client...

IS THIS WHAT IS IN STORE FOR MINE KIDS WHEN THEY GROW UP??????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TO BE HURT BY THE SOCIAL WORKER WHO WAS SUPPOSED TO HELP. THEN TO BE SHUNNED BY THE REST OF THE SOCIAL WORKERS IN THIS SMALL TOWN WHO ALL KNEW THE FIRST SOCIAL WORKER!!!!!!?????????

am hopeless.