I am trying to stay to myself through all this. I hate crying in front of people so I try to stay clear of family gatherings and such. At church last Sunday a pg woman sat down next to me. When I first met her she said I didn't want kids I was devastated when I found out I was pg. this is her second. I have some really un christian thoughts when it comes to her. If god wants me to be faithful he needs to stop putting that kind of thing in my face. I havn't been back to church since. It was all I could do to keep my composure through the service. I think I will go back when she has it so I don't have to look at her. Oh well enough of my bad attitude. I know what its like. Right now being reclusive is the only way I can keep my sanity right now. Friends and family will just have to understand. Take care and good luck
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